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  • Mood: Artistic
  • Listening to: AMVs
  • Reading: Blood of Olympus
  • Watching: Hunter x Hunter 2011
  • Playing: Pokemon Omega Ruby
  • Eating: Nothing
  • Drinking: Water

Originals

Omega

Ghost Deal

Slayer Academy

Odd Jobbers

Phoenix

Shape Story

Wayward Oaks

The Arts of Martial

I'm Pretty Sure God Hates Me

Constant Conscience

Recover From 9-11

Boulevard of Angels

I Fell in Love With a Hit-man

The Ludicrous Misadventures of Ratchet Burns

Blitz Knights

Shayride

Story of Jack Grimm

Summer Knight Project

Swordfish

Story of Tim

Just a list of the things I've made over the years. Any title catches your intrest. Feel free to ask and I'll tell you whatever you want to know. 

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  • Mood: Stuck
  • Listening to: AMVs
  • Reading: Blood of Olympus
  • Watching: Hunter x Hunter 2011
  • Playing: Pokemon Omega Ruby
  • Eating: Nothing
  • Drinking: Water
Well. The year is coming to a close. And, that means new years resolutions. And, I am going to throw this all out in the public. My new years resolution. Is to be strong. 

The first few years of my life in Elementary and Middle school were terrible. Having ADHD OCD and Anxiety, all the other kids thought I was retarded in Elementary school. And in Middle School, I was constantly harassed and bullied, sometimes even beat up for being fat, socially awkward, and just all around different. All the while, at I home I was also constantly put down and tossed aside. I spent everyday hating life. And in the 8th grade. I attempted to kill myself. 

After thankfully waking up the next morning, I woke up the story I will forever be grateful for. "Tengen Toppa Gurren Lagann" Most people marvel at Kamina, but me, I was focused on Simon the Digger. He reminded me of myself, small and meek, not being able to stand up for himself. And then, he lost the thing that made him strong. But he found his own strength. Watching this, from start to finish. Made me want to become strong. So I did. Or at least I thought. In the summer in between 8th and 9th grade, I only became stronger physically and on the outside. I had fake confidence that was boosted by being able to find and talk to other people that were outcasts like myself. Being able to be some kind of beacon for them, constantly being praised by them. I thought I was strong. But in reality, nothing changed about me. 

I was still pathetically weak. Always relying on the praise and support of others. That was what was always keeping my head held high. in the eyes of the people that held me so great. But to myself, I was always feeling sorry for myself. And wanting others to pull me along. I may have been strong for my friends and family. But for myself I was weak. And I refuse to live like that anymore. In the words of Steve Harvey, "You have to be sick and tired, of being sick and tired."

I'm no longer going to rely on the praise of others to feel confident in my own abilities. No more excuses. No more justifications. No more feeling sorry for myself and putting myself down. Letting everyone believe in me but myself. No more trying regain what was in the past, when I can be trying to improve what will be in the future. No more trying to hold to things I know I have to let go of. No more letting other people tell me, what I am and what I am not. I know who and what I am. And strong, isn't it. But it's time to start practicing what I preach, and live by the same thing I tell others. Because I can only start winning, when I stop being scared of winning. 

My new year's resolution. Is to move forward, and not look back. To have real strength. Not for my friends. Not for my family. From here on out, I am going to start being strong for myself. 
 
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  • Mood: Stumped
  • Listening to: Pandora
  • Reading: Everything
  • Watching: Hunter x Hunter 2011
  • Playing: Pokemon
  • Eating: Nothing
  • Drinking: Water
*sigh* I've grown to hate my face over the course of working here. 

I don't think I'm some kind of sex God or anything, but I'd like to think that I'm at least a decently good looking guy, as I'm told often. 

However, I'm also told pretty often, that I always look serious or angry. Some people say I have the face of a thug. I was once even told that I look like a womanizer. And there are other times when customers will ask one of my coworkers if I'm high. Long story short, my face gives a terrible first impression. I also apparently look a lot older than what I really am. I'm only 18, and people tend to think I'm somewhere in between 21 and 24. >////> Which can get really awkward sometimes. Especially when some lady that's like, 26 hits on me. 

And it really sucks because well, having a 'pretty face' is really the only thing I got goin for me. :shrug: 

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  • Mood: Annoyed
  • Listening to: Pandora
  • Reading: Everything
  • Watching: Hunter x Hunter 2011
  • Playing: Pokemon
  • Eating: Nothing
  • Drinking: Water
As I said in my last journal, I've been working at a convenience store/gas station for the past few months. And for a good chunk of it, I was specifically a cashier. And even now that I've been moved to maintenance, I still have to cover the register every now and then. And in the short few months I've been working behind said register, I've picked up a few pet peeves, and to my knowledge their pretty universal to other people that work in retail. This is just a short list of things that you can do to make almost any cashier hate you. If you're a cashier I'm sure you will relate to these, if not, learn etiquette and learn NOT to do these things. 

Give Them a $100 Bill

I don't know how many times someone gave me a 100, and I instantly thought 'I hate you'. See, reason this is bad, is because we have to give you change. And this can empty our register. This isn't as bad if you're buying something that's worth like, 50 something or more. But if you're only buying like, two items that totals out to about 4 dollars. Don't use a hundred. Use the fucking 5 dollar bill I see in your hand. This is even worse, when I just dropped all the extra cash into the vault and I only have like, 60 dollars in the register. Guys, for the sake of everyone, use small bills. It makes both of our lives easier. 

Leave Your Shit on the Counter and Walk Away 

*sigh* This, is just rude. If you aren't ready to check out, don't come to the counter. I can understand if you forgot something, so you have to go get it, but don't drop your shit here, and then say 'be right back' and just look around the store to see if there is anything else you want to buy. This is even worse if there is a line. I'm not holding the line for you to go grab something. Bottom line, don't go to the register unless you're about to check out. 

Tell the Cashier to Hurry Up

This is even worse when there is only ONE cashier behind the register. There is only one or two of us, and a dozen or so of you, and we can only take care of one of you at a time. Wait your turn. I understand you might be in a rush, but I'm not taking my time either. I want you out of my store just as much as you want to get out. And it doesn't matter how fast the cashier is, if the customer is slow, then it's worthless. If the customer takes forever in a day to choose what they want or they don't remember their PIN number, that's on them. Not the cashier. 

Use Money from the 'Take a Penny' Thing, and Still Expect Change

 . . . That's just wrong man . . . 

Ask for Food, and be Specific About What Piece You Want

This applies more to convenience stores/gas stations or just anything with a deli or something along those lines. They're all the same. Don't be like 'no I don't want that one, I want the other one'. Take what I give you. I'm not paying attention to what piece I'm giving you, I'm giving you your food so I can go to the next person. This isn't a mini Burger King were the motto is 'Have it Your Way'. This is a mini Wal-Mart were the motto is 'Take Your Shit and Leave'. 

Complain About the Price 

Don't yell at me for something being over priced guys. I don't choose the price on any of this. I just sell it. There's this thing called an economy. And taxes. That makes the price. Not me. Have a problem with the price, take it up with the government. 

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  • Mood: Tired
  • Listening to: MattG
  • Reading: Everything
  • Watching: Hunter x Hunter 2011
  • Playing: Pokemon
  • Eating: Nothing
  • Drinking: Water
Alright, well sorry I have been kinda dead for the past while. Life's been getting to me. Working and schooling full time is time consuming and tiring @.@ I'm sure a lot of my friends can agree. So, here is a dump of updates of my life in the past few months 

Slayer Academy wiki thing, will continue, I didn't give up on that project, I've just been too busy to update it. All the info for it, is in my head, which isn't the most reliable thing with my shitty memory. ANYWAY! What I plan on doing is, getting the spell lists done, making Character Profiles for everyone. These will include physical descriptions, back-stories before they go to the academy abilities, so on and so forth. I also plan on making a fun little personality quiz thing. So people can take it, and see what kind of magician they would be if they were in the world of Slayer Academy. Earth Water Fire Air Nature Ice Lightning or Null. And I will also be doing more research because this story will be heavily based on some demonologies and of the such, as well as, a huge french theme in terms of naming and whatnot. The biggest maybe on the list, is making a monsterpedia of the Daemon. Like just, make a bunch of Daemon and make profiles for each type of Daemon. I'm not too sure if I'm doing that or not, because I don't even have an overall designing theme for them. And of course I plan on giving a Synopsis of each arc individually. I already gave on of Freshman year. Next is the time in between Freshman and Sophomore year. 

Work. My job is working at 711. And I actually really enjoy this job. I love doing what I do, I love the people I work with. The first two weeks were hell, but I think that's the case for any time someone gets a new job. A bit of life advice for the young uns. Take it from someone who's only had three different jobs their whole life. The first two weeks will make you want to quit. Don't. Once you get that pay check you'll know it will be worth it. And I also have ALOT of funny and/or crazy stories to tell from working there. Gas Stations are weird places and they attract weird people. So expect some more journal entries of me explaining the life of a 711 employee. 

And finally, we have school. *SIIIIIIIGH* Yeah, I started my first year of college this semester, and it didn't go well. Infact, towards the end my History professor told me to just give up and stop going to his class all together. Which honestly, I was tempted to do in the first place. You see, some may disagree, but I'm not the brightest tool in the crayon box. Classrooms aren't for me. Now I understand that means I have to try harder than most people, and I accept that. It isn't like I didn't try or didn't study. Because I did. I've pulled more than my fair share of all nighters. BUT, sometimes hard work isn't enough. And now I'm in constant debate of whether or not I want to go to school next semester. Because, I'm all up for positive thinking and getting up and trying again, only harder, but at the same tie, I don't want to rush in and fuck up again. Because, messing up in Highschool, I can just retake the class. College, I can retake the class, but at the same time, I wasted a lot of time and money. I don't want to give up on College, just step away from it for a bit and get some bearings. At the same time, I'm well aware that the longer I stay away, the less likely I'll be to go back and the longer it will take for me to get my degree. So, I'm teetering inbetween going back and not. 
  • Mood: Artistic
  • Listening to: AMVs
  • Reading: Blood of Olympus
  • Watching: Hunter x Hunter 2011
  • Playing: Pokemon Omega Ruby
  • Eating: Nothing
  • Drinking: Water

Originals

Omega

Ghost Deal

Slayer Academy

Odd Jobbers

Phoenix

Shape Story

Wayward Oaks

The Arts of Martial

I'm Pretty Sure God Hates Me

Constant Conscience

Recover From 9-11

Boulevard of Angels

I Fell in Love With a Hit-man

The Ludicrous Misadventures of Ratchet Burns

Blitz Knights

Shayride

Story of Jack Grimm

Summer Knight Project

Swordfish

Story of Tim

Just a list of the things I've made over the years. Any title catches your intrest. Feel free to ask and I'll tell you whatever you want to know. 

 - Keep Your :iconswagplz:

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Rashad Barnes
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I am a 18 year old with too much time on his hands. I don't do drawing much that's my brother's specialty but I am good at making stories and fanime (yeah im also an Otaku)
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